Have I mentioned yet that being pregnant terrifies me?
First, there's the fact that my body actually did what it was supposed to, all by itself. That's completely unprecidented, and it makes me wonder a bit if I was abducted by aliens.
Second, there's the timing. Seriously. Acorn will be getting his trach out in the spring, and if all goes well this little one - who I've decided to call Leaf here on my blog - will be born mid-to-late summer.
If all doesn't go well, Leaf will be making his or her arrival about the same time Acorn gets his trach out, and we'll be jumping right back into this whole crazy mess.
Third....there's a baby. In my belly. That will need food and clothing and some sort of child care and we've been terribly spoiled the last couple of years with good child care for Acorn that has been paid by our insurance, and we'll be picking up the tab for Acorn's care too.
Fourth, the morning sickness has been awful, and though I'm now taking medication for it, I worry about side effects and I worry that the horrific morning sickness means there's more to worry about.
On the plus side....
There's a baby.
In my belly.
And I don't think anything could make me happier