Dear blog...

...it's confession time.

In the last two weeks, I haven't checked my blood pressure or my blood sugar.

I've stopped taking my metformin (as planned), and I'm hoping that stops some of the crazy hunger issues (but not counting on it).

I haven't been to karate, taken a walk, or done much of anything physical, other than carrying my toddler (31.5 pounds a month ago, 28.5 now) out to the car, into doctors' offices, back to the car, and then back to his room.

I've eaten out more than I should.

You've all heard that we're supposed to put our own oxygen mask on before assisting others, right? Well, around here, all the self care I've managed in these 2 weeks has been sleeping and eating (because not eating leads to blood sugar instability, which leads to major issues), and taking my meds. And I haven't even been all that good with the eating bit, given the intersection of the schedule we're keeping right now and a need for dramatically more calories than I'm used to consuming.

Acorn has been to the pediatrician 5 times in the last 24 days, and to the ENT once. He's had some unknown minor respiratory bug, an ear/sinus infection, some sort of horrific stomach bug (we're down to diapers that smell like something died, which is an improvement over that plus vomiting - he's eating again, which is a plus, having lost fully 10% of his body weight in the last month), and now another ear infection. He's on round two of antibiotics, and he's had a shot of antibiotics too.

Leaf is still hanging in there. Heartbeat was good at last check, and I've felt a few tiny kicks a few times. My belly is growing, which is good - I am bigger now than I was with Acorn at this stage, which seems promising to me, given that Acorn was more than 2 weeks behind on growth when he was born.

I'm supposed to be looking for a nanny. The preschool thing is still somewhat iffy, and a nanny would mean that Acorn could go to speech preschool this fall, which he will love, because his SLP is one of the teachers (and they get amazing results). But the whole concept is overwhelming - shoot, I thought I was doing good to find the daycare center/preschool that I found. Hiring a housekeeper was stressful, and I don't have to trust my kid(s) to that person, just my laundry & dishes & toilets.

Anyway. I'm behind on sleep, behind on calories, and I have to set an alarm to make sure I leave early enough to get Acorn and get him to his psychologist's appointment. And I need to get some actual work done for work, so I guess I better get to it.